This weekend I had the opportunity to meet one of my cousins from my dad’s side, Karena. It was an incredible trip back home. Not only did I meet Karena but I also got to spend time with my 3 Aunties and a handful of cousins. Unfortunately, I didn’t spend much time with that side of the family while I was growing up because we lost Dad when I was so young. I can’t even begin to describe how incredible it was to be able to spend the day with them.
While we were out last night, I got to thinking… this year really hasn’t been completely bad. Yes, it has been a tough year but a some unexpected things happen that make the tough times seem minimal and insignificant.
First of all, I reconciled with my sister Bonnie after nearly 3 years of hardly speaking to each other. That in itself is incredible… especially when you consider she unconditionally stood by me a couple months ago during one of the toughest times of my life.
I also got to spend time with both sides of the family this summer. It’s rare that I see one side or the other so the fact that I was able to attend get-togethers on both sides the family within just a couple months of each other is unheard of. I’m so grateful to my sisters Bonnie & Sharon because, if it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t have been able to attend either function. In June, Bonnie drove hours out of her way so I could attend the welcome home party for my cousin Donna in Maryland. Then this weekend, Sharon drove in the complete opposite direction of where she was going so I could go back to our Rez meet Karena. I literally start to tear up whenever I think about the lengths they went through to make sure that I could be included. Now if that isn’t love for their baby sister, I don’t know what is.
So… I found that stating “it has to get better soon” wasn’t turning things around because I was concentrating on the tough times that were behind me and hoping for the best. After realizing that I had some really significant, positive events happen over the past few months I decided that I’m not going to let the few speed bumps I have ahead of me yet this year chew away at me like I did for the past 8 months. It’s just not worth it.